For every action, there’s a consequence - So you can't argue that what Im doing is unjustifiable

Emotions run deep in me..I am utterly confused by the recent happenings..I don't know what to do..This is the first time Im breaking down like this..I mean Im confused,sad,disappointed..Im not angry with what you told me at 10.40 p.m on 11 Sept..what Im angry and peeved is you-know-what...



I've never experienced this situation before.. I have ever experienced betrayal but not to this extent..Of all people,why you? Tell me why? Its so hard for me to accept everything in at one go..Did I do anything wrong to you? For all I know,I've been playing a perfect game..What wrong did I do?



Ive been talking to people.. they gave me their views on the situation..and they all agree on 2 thing..hais...that I shouldnt waste our friendship and throw it down the drain...the other I wont say.. they say that if put in my shoes,they would do this do that..but u r not in my shoes..u dun noe how I feel...



Let me tell you something..I was brought up in an environment where we do not tolerate lies and misdeeds..Being in this holy month,I was advised to forgive and forget..But you see,its that difficult for me..Im willing to give you another chance but I guess things will never be the same again...You will hear from me soon enough... I wish u all the best aite with ahem..n yeah,you are still my bro... But please,don't get your hopes up too high..it will be weeks,probably months before we are back to normal...



There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this

+pEacEoUt+

First things fist,

I am sorry for all the wrong things that I’ve done
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like my feelings for you
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to have you in my life

I understand that there are some problems
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
Im sorry I made you confused
Im sorry for all the wrong things that I’ve done

Secondly,

I badly wanted to let you know how I feel
But I was somehow petrified to do so
It was a cowardly thing for me to do
I admit it, I screwed up
I was shy to make my move
That’s why I cried when you left my world
My life was full of loneliness

I pretended that I had no love for you
But slowly but surely the feeling began eating away what was left of me
I couldn’t concentrate in lectures and often
I find myself stealing glances at you
Then I felt that I almost had you, but

Thridly,


I'm sitting here all by myselfj
ust trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anythingjust to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I didAnd you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did

Lastly and finally,

I know shes moving on
From me shes gotta hear this
I know that she’ll be ok
that she will be happy with the one she really loves
And I know that ill be loving her so
Shes my soul
My everything in life
I could have
I just cant let her go…